So Humbly Yours...

You can put this entire summer in the can

and seal it up because I am over it.

After clumsily falling

or face planting myself into cement

literally making my right arm

totally useless and creating a fog of incredible pain

I finally have full range of my arm

though it still needs therapy to build up the muscles.

I remember my sister having a cast

on her leg after falling off a horse

and laughing because when it came off her leg

was spindly compared to the other.

I know my bad.

So being unable to do anything of significance

eight weeks of healing

pinched a nerve in my back or hip or somewhere

which defined pain that surpassed

the arm...like it went out the hatch pain

like I started to talk to God again pain

giving small tokens to any god who exists in

fantasy or sci-fi stories.

I couldn't walk...I couldn't stand for more than a moment

and frankly I was beyond mad at the world

because I hate pain.

Am I better...a little...I can at least start to stretch

by touching my toes and other stretches

and though I should not be so snarky

I have learned that there is a difference between

mental snarky and pain 'oh my God' snarky.

To those in constant pain...

I am so sorry.

Sorry that there is nothing that exists to lift

the pain that wears you down like a drip in the dirt

leaving a deep hole.

I am sorry that our bodies are not easy

to fix or to understand.

I want a machine that gives you 3-D view of everything

in your body...like a robot.

So I am humbly yours...missing the summer

and working toward taking control

of my own self.

barb