It's Just Depression

Sometimes I wander

late into the darkness of my life

pushing aside that niggle voice

considered my better side.

For there in the dark

beats the heart of misery

I can hear the blood pulse rhythmically

a siren upon the crashing waves.

A struggle on cat paws

I push away from my strength

letting go with abandonment

as it pulls me further under into its bosom.

I don't resist

for my experience, my history

based on denial in the whispers of the night

are sordidly in vain.

A short ride in the dark

I let go embracing wave after wave

of self-depreciation

knowing I shall return once I am through.

Once I know

that nothing lasts and nothing is bad

it is just me refocusing

shedding all that makes me sad.

barb

13th Book now on Amazon

My 13th Novel on Amazon Kindle and Softbound

Abigail Thompson was born on the Christmas morning after the end

of the Civil War.  The only daughter in a family of sons,

Abigail was raised with the same spunk and curiosity but somewhere in her

makeup is her love to uncover the reason behind

the things around her.  Turning away from the customs and expectations

of young women, Abigail wishes to make her own

rules and way through life and to do it without support from

her parents.

Blue Notes From Afar finds Abigail spending the summer in

Cardiff, Wales with her grandparents following the completion of her education

in London.  Enjoying the quiet, enjoyable days along

the coastline, she is unexpectedly drawn from her writing and books by the arrival

of a blue note questioning the identity of her father.  A mystery that is unexpected,

anonymous and cruel but one she will not accept as she finds

herself in the midst of a new awakening. 

Blue Notes From Afar

Writing Injuries?

After a wonderful faceplant three weeks ago, I have been unable to work on my art or even sit with the laptop and write.  It has reduced me to using the tablet to stay in touch with that big world out there.

My new book, Blue Notes From Afar, is sitting in the "can" waiting to be released.  In the meantime, I am on my fifth book [reading not writing] so I am being productive.  Or at least I am convincing myself that I am.  My arm which is still healing is about 70% healed with the upper arm and shoulder still hurting.  I have a great respect for those with disabilities and their resolve to overcome the challenges.  I can say that I am doing quite well eating with my left hand to the point I will continue it because [a] I eat slower and [b] I find it interesting that I have ignored my left side.

Blue Notes From Afar is naturally a romance story.  The main character, Abigail Thompson, is the daughter of Josie Younger of When The West Is Over.  I have set her down in Great Britain and more particularly in a small seaside town of Cardiff in Wales in the summer 1886.  What should be an enjoyable summer in the country with her grandparents and best friend before she returns to Tennessee turns into a chaotic summer where she is unwittingly dragged into broiling relationships and deceit.

Hopefully, I shall be back to normal soon.  I have a large art show coming up in a few weeks and don't know if I will be able to finish a few major pieces but right now I am trying to find a recipe for Hoagie Rolls since I have four art students coming over on Wednesday for Meatball Subs and great conversation about art.

Barb